impressions

venues: Love Cafe, 15th and U St., nice lounge, good lighting for reading, typing.
Jin, 14th Street, half a block south of BusBoys and Poets. expensive, empty, dark...one and done.

I spent some time talking to Jai about writing, women and a need to be independent of our current living situations. Most of our conversations revolve around these topics, each being allotted variable amounts of conversational time depending on the day, state of mind, etc.

oh and of course there is the whole grad school situation. i am coming out of my bout with disillusionment and utter frustration with the entire process and telling myself that i just have to approach this whole thing "again" at an entirely different and much more preparatory angle. There are things I want in life and nothing will stop me from actively trying to attain those goals, especially not a few rejections (ok, so to date it's been about 8 or 9 but really who's counting?)

the supervisors are gone for the week so the bullshitting and blogging will be at optimum levels today and tomorrow. it already feels like friday and that ladies and gentlemen is a great fucking feeling...

one day it will all make sense

;I have ashes for sale;

In an attempt to rewind space-time
Continuum,
The sky fell to eye-level
And became what was used to being
Like the sun never setting
Stars eaten bit by bit

It rained on everyone’s head
But it was spring so no one cared
It was when the electrocutions began,
That guided lightning out of nowhere fast
That tempted humbled, yes,
People began to kneel
In worship of a heaven not so far away,

Begging for the distance between she
And God to return to the fathoms of
Not knowing how long or far
It takes for cats and dogs to fall to the ground
For fat women to stop
Singing
And begin their eternal cry
Souls echoing hopelessly into a whisper
That is their heart.

;I only have ashes;

3 gone...1 to go

NYU and Emerson came today in nice crisp envelopes with messages closely resembling Brown's.

That leaves UVA...

yeah, right.



today officially sucks.


i am not what was intended...

Mr. Jones (applicant)

We regretfully inform you that after close consideration of your application, we will be unable to accept you into the Brown University Literary Arts program...

blah, blah, blah,

661 applicants competing for 8 spots.

in response to the rejection letter:

my id: go eat meat, drink lots of alcohol, smoke and pack of cigarettes and have sex with a attractive stranger.

my ego:
you're stupid for thinking you had a chance to get in without a verbal recommendation from Kevin Young, lol (better start looking at the low-res programs, state schools).

...I don't consider myself an elitist but I want to go to the best school for what I'm trying to study...I just have to re-think what best means, for me, specifically and gauge exactly where my strengths and weaknesses are in poetry through those avenues available to me.

i felt sorry for myself for 5 minutes on sunday, when i realized that i had been rejected and wouldnt be going to my first choic in schools.

i must hastily consider a plan B for the fall.

round one, day two

predictions:

Ohio St. def Davidson

Iowa def Northwestern St.

Bucknell def Arkansas

Wisconsin def Arizona

Georgetown def Northern Iowa

West Virginia def Southern Illinois

Memphis def Oral Roberts

Villanova def Monmouth

Pittsburgh def Kent St.

Michigan St. def George Mason

N.C. State def California

UConn def Albany

Kansas def Bradley

North Carolina def Murray St.

Texas def Penn

Kentucky def UAB




so far power conferences go as follows

ACC is 2-0, Big East is 0-3, SEC is 4-0, Big 12 is 1-1, Big 10 is 2-0, Pac-10 is 2-0


maybe 8 big east teams was a bad idea.


Seton Hall, Syracuse, Marquette>>>Maryland, Florida St., Miami ????

I'm a G...I'm a G

ok, not so much a G

more like an L that stands for Loser

i am 5th of 5 in the friendly yahoo bracket my fellow morehouse men and I are battling under (morehouse04) umm, i picked up 7 points yesterday after seton hall and syracuse lost, two teams i had making it to the sweet sixteen. silly me. i always put too much thought into my bracket but considering the scores of some of the games, i'm lucky to have any points at all. the only teams favored to win that played like it from the beginning were Florida and UCLA, who in the past have been perennial disappointments when it comes to living up to the high seeding they tend to get...not since Udonis Haslem was on the team has Florida made a serious run for the tournament championship. UCLA haven't been super since the 95 championship year.


Player of the year watch:

Adam Morrison- 35 pts, 11-21 (fg), 4-8 (3pt.)
J.J. Redick- 29 pts, 10-20 (fg), 5-10 (3pt.)

the similarities are ridiculous

march madness

my final four:

Texas v. Memphis
UConn v. BC/Villanova/Georgetown/Oklahoma

i'm trying not to let sentiment overrule the logical choice
but right now sentiment is winning

UConn v. Georgetown it is.

Final: UConn v. Texas

UConn wins by 10

2006 National Champions: UConn Huskies

to become first class since 91,92 Duke to win twice in less than 4 years (must check this stat)

another monday in the office

today is a very slow day. ive been ebaying for some dress shoes and emailing folk, picking my nose and staring at the clock. i don't mind my job at all, in fact, i enjoy what i do most of the time; it's a stress-free, independent, laid-back environment 90% of the time...it's just that days like this, when most people are out of the office, including my head supervisor, well i'd rather be at a bar somewhere or lounging and reading a book or even better, writing.

today, it dawned on me that i will have to postpone my chicago st. application process for a couple months which will take me out of the running of a fall '06 start. i will apply for spring '07 entry unless i receive an acceptance letter from brown, uva, emerson or nyu (none of which i'm expecting, due to a few foibles in the application process, but then, excuses are nothing more than) which should arrive like next week, if not this week, in which case i have a few days...

(i have just realized, while writing this, how this week is the week i should find out, and i am not at all anxious to find out if i did or not...i think i became very disillusioned this past application season, to go through all the shit i did to get apps out and then have a recommender re-nig, well i've kinda just said "i will or i won't" and left it to be decided anxiety will only drive me to drinking more)

i bought a few items this weekend. i hadn't shopped since last summer and i usually don't shop more than 3 times a year, that is for anything more than one item.

wish list items that i'm trying to find on ebay for cheap:

Razr phone
ipod video
classic hip-hop cds


with the help of jai, i was able to literally steal two deftones tickets (930 club) last week from hungry bidders. the show was great: loud, wonderful vocals, everything i expected. needless to say, the coldplay concert was at the MCI center the same night (thu, 3/2) and i had actually contacted someone about splurging 250$ on two tickets near the floor but in the end i decided against it...just not a buy i can make with the little money i have.

i'm looking forward to this week's march madness. this time of year is always exciting for me and even moreso this year because two local teams (Georgetown and George Washington) will be in the tournament, no problem. I'm excited to see how far they go, both excellently coached, athletic squads that have shown that they can play with the best of the best in college basketball. Alas, Maryland Terrapins basketball will be watching the tourney from college park again this year unless they get to at least the final in the acc tourney: yeah, good luck with that.

i guess that's enough for now. i think i will take lunch.