okayplayer.

it has been my writing domain for the past two years and lately there has been a lot of talk from people on the board about not getting enough responses to their entries...the sentiment that people were not "feeling" them or were "hating" on their work. this, as well as the considerable drop in talented or thought-provoking threads sparked my two-week hiatus from the board. that may not seem like a long time but i have over 2200 posts on the board and i haven't gone more than a week without posting since feb '03. i consider it my internet mainstay. anyway, i wrote a piece about all of the pissy talk from folks entitled "view all" which is what pops up to the right of a thread title once it gets over 20 responses. my hope was for people that have no idea about what goes on in this web community to have at least a slight grasp after reading this. i would like to think that my writing is evolving. you be the judge.

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i(we) have been defined.

I. virtual

i have been defined by the
white wall, a void with grey boundaries,
the depthless scroll, occupied by a black
stenciled vocabulary of dying thoughts,
remnants of daydreamed master-pieces poured
out on a board of alternating threads,
distinct personalities that mistake
external afterthoughts for validation
that could only come from within self...

(he who knows
what life his
word speaks from
what death it
molds)

...where purpose has always
been shadowed by expectation--

and there lying in a pool
of self reassurance is the
interpreter. no questions.
answer: continuous ups
for the palpitating heart.

II. reality

i speak from no high
moral ground.

i know because i am.

and how important is this
inquiry of multiple worlds?

tantamount.

if i had two lives
maybe this life could
be blindly and overtly
lended to bullshit.

if i am to speak,
i shall speak volumes
so that even those
that don't listen
will hear.

it is reached for,
sought after--perfection.

yet my humanity
will not allow for
a worldview outside
of my own, and i fall short
in attempting to go against
the grain of selfish promotion.

it may be the need
for the isolation of i(eye)

or

the idea that less is more--

knowing when to speak silence
is an attribute we all
must embrace.

it's the first step to
the first reply.